I’ve got a lot going on in my head right now. I’m in an interesting season, I think, one full of re-evaluation. I’m puzzling out myself, my life, our life as a family, my faith, my place in the world, my place in the church…it’s a lot, and it’s heavy, and on any given day I usually have about a minute and a half to actually be still and be quiet and just think. I’m finding myself standing at the sink in the bathroom, lost in my thoughts, while I’m supposed to be getting ready for bed.
I want to see this as a season of new possibilities and a healthy re-imagining, but mostly I’m finding it intimidating. We’re not routinely encouraged to wipe the slate clean and start from scratch. I think, though, that that may be what I need to do. I may just need to radically re-imagine myself. And it’s freaking me out!